number 11

i like when i see people who all find beauty in different ways/forms.
a good example is danielle boudreau. she finds beauty in the human body, but it's not shallow minded in how she finds it. she sees the beauty in feet, even though she doesn't like feet really. she see the beauty in hands, in just the physical body in general. i feel so...excited when i know people like her that are out there. it's refreshing to know someone else sees beauty in different places/ways. i like that when i meet someone...

number 10

i have a slight, sudden fear of going into water alone, or when i'm not surrounded by people i know well.

also, i hate not being about to see around myself in the water. yes, that does mean in dark parts of water, or just muggy water.

number 9

when a guy hits on me, i feel so weird. i become mixed on what to do. naturally, i'm a flirty person. i flirt when someone flirts with me, but with guys my instinct tells me not to because they might take it seriously. guys really do make me feel uncomfortable when they're around me and/or hitting on me...

number 8

i have a fear of ceiling fans. i always think they'll fall and crush me when they're on high...

number 7

i hear from a lot of people [not only my parents] that i could pull off any style, seriously, and people could believe it. there is no doubt in my mind of that.
many times, from my parents, i hear "i don't see why you broaden yourself and try another style that helps bring yourself out more"
i've found i bring my personality out quite a bit in what i wear. i wear very dark or neutral colors, and some bold colored accents. my personality is open enough that i can't just wear one style and one color all the time. neutral just shows that my point of view hasn't been decided yet and when it has been decided i don't look misleading.
same thing goes for the scent i want for the day.

example: i've come to realize that when i feel like wearing more blue or watery colors, thus defining me in more of a flowing mood/personality, i'd want to wear axe essence or axe kilo. both are strong scents that make me think/feel more flowy or just chill.

number 6

i don't really like meeting new people, i usually have to be the one whole does the wild and crazy shit to break the ice and make them remember me. i read them as well as possible and see wht i should and shouldn't do, but with all of her friends, i don't have to and i love it.

number 5

i hide my insecurity in my boyish ness.

number 4

i don't trust other generations.
the way i see it, is louis quatorze [14] screwed over not only louis 15, but also louis 16.
yes, we're in a different form of government, but that doesn't change the fact that our previous generation or so, have basically shat on us and are getting away with it. we're playing the role of louis 15, trying to rebuild what louis quatorze fucked up. too bad we'll die before we're finished.

number 3

i complain...a lot. but i don't complain to change anything anymore because i'm afraid to.
i've begun to think that yes, everything happens for a reason, and if you force something just to make yourself happy for now, you'll get fucked over later. you screwed over nature's little path, and then karma comes around and kicks you in the ass so you can fall face first in the mudd and horse shit of the side of nature's path...

number 2

of all the people who have ever motivated me to become better in my life, to be optimistic, ect.
there has only ever been one who i didn't like at some point in a way that i wanted to be with her.
it bothers me that i never got to know her, or talked to her more than i did, but she did a great deal of help in my life, and i sometimes regret telling her that, but i also fear telling her might bother her.

number one

i've fallen in love, seriously, maybe 3 times in my life.
i still find myself thinking about each of them in some way. the only guy in that group, i think about him and end up just thinking about defending him and keeping him safe from everyone being a dick to him.