number 126

i loathe when i can't write. when no inspiration strikes or when i can't figure out how to form the words the way i want them so i can have the pretty picture in front of me. it drives me insane.

number 125

i used to wish with all my might, that i were all knowing, but now, i'd die if i were that way. knowing everything about everyone, would kill me.

number 124

i understand everyone is their own individual human being formed by their own hands and mixed with their own passions and so on.

one thing i found i can't stand, as hypocritical as it sounds sometimes, is i hate when people don't take initiative and ask someone something on their own. when people have to ask someone to ask someone else something for them.

number 123

i've realized posess a simalar thought process as benjamin franklin. it's kinda awkward really.

number 122

i previously stated how much i hate when my friends start liking things i like, an exception i've found is with music sometimes. mainly courtney singletary. she's listening to heavier music and i actually feel like i can be on the same page with her when it comes to music. most other people can't put up with the heavier music i like.

i could go and have a headbanging fit with courtney out of nowhere.
:D

number 121

i have realized why my relationships never really lasted in the school year.



what i have also realized is i was always too weak to just suck it up and stick with it.

number 120

i hate when i like something then all my friends start liking it too. i try to aim outside of what they do so i can be original, or just be as different from them as i feel sometimes, and out of nowhere, they all start adventuring into things i like. then...i don't feel as unique as i know i am.

number 119

i'm embarassed to say i read twilight and am kinda excited for the movie now because of the fan base...

number 118

i hate when someone says right out, that i'm emo. especially if it's the first thing someone says to me after being away for 2 years.

number 117

ever wanna feel young?


be friends with everyone in classes higher than your's.

number 116

i look back at my experience in chorus all those years ago and say "that is why i dropped out of it." to so many things.

number 115

i can read body language for the most part, but i swear, it's bothers me when i can't read someone's.

number 114

i don't like when i have something i hold close to me that my parents know about. it makes me feel like they're always prying in when they're around at unnessessary times.

number 113

i hate sitting in english and answering questions and explaining my answer because everyone seems to think i'm some show off-y kiss ass bitch who knows everything about everything.


it's also why i hate answering questions in any class, but english more than the others.

number 112

i go back and reread that message from devon sometimes and i feel like shit that i have the reputation of doing stupid things to people...

number 111

oh and p.s.

i fucking love you.
everything about you.
that smile, that look you get.
everything.
that poem wasn't a lie.
i really do always want you around.
i'd prefer you over quite a few people just because i feel so incompletely when you're gone.

number 110

ever sit back and remember that "hey, i have no reason to worry. someone out there loves me."

number 109

sometimes, i feel like i'm running on a different frequency.

number 108

any thought of my doctor "weening" me off of adderall makes me feel scared.

number 107

i'm an anime fan, not fenatic, but a fan.

it comes and goes though.

number 106

sometimes i'm even caught off guard by how much i love pens. i'm a weird fenatic i guess you could say. i look at different kinds and i judge them based on how long they last and how well they write [in my opinion] and which ones i trust. i don't really prefer a particular brand, i trust uniball a little more, but that doesn't always mean i prefer it. it depends on what i'm getting them for.

for me to love them, they have to be able aid me when i need to write a paper and when i feel like inking a picture or design i made...

number 105

as disturbing as this may sound to anyone who understands what it is, i kinda have a thing for yuri.

not in the way that ombm it turns me on, but i like the art. it's interesting for me to look at the fan pics people have done. i actually judge which ones i like and why and so on.