number 43

i have come to realize the method to my madness.

if i feel commited to someone, and i suddenly think i like someone else [not as much as the person i'm commited to obviously] and i know the person i kinda like has no feelings of that nature for myself, then i tell them i like them because i know they'll do one of 2 things.

one: completely didstance themselves from me which would result in those feelings for them to drastically wane.

2: they'll talk to me about it, possibly result in some awkwardness [which if too awkward for them i will put up distance] and usually it helps me confront my feelings for them and suffocate said feelings until it's just a dull roar in my mind which i ignore.