number 52

many mornings [or early afternoons] i stop and actually think about if i took my meds or not.

then i end up having to think through my whole morning just to see if i did.

i can never tell the difference in the way i act when i'm on it or not at that exact moment, i can only tell later on when i seem hyper and sleepy as a child who keeps eating buckets and buckets of candy.