number 62

i might have said this before, or at least said it a lot, but when guys randomly start talking to me, i feel like i need to jump behind a wall of stone and cement, while i have a moat of swampy water that has spears pointing up in it, and a bunch of human harming animals in it. i seriously feel the need to distance myself from them for fear of them trying something and me not catching it until they try again.